as i'm gearing up to write my big thankful list this week, i need to write a little precursor.
in everything, give thanks. it's so simple. but can i make it ring true in my life? some days it's hard. the past several weeks i've been sort of.. distracted. ineffective. letting the dishes pile up. procrastinating on the gym. just sort of plodding along, in a funny kind of slump. last week i mentioned to a friend that i was afraid of this spirit of "sliding by" i had let creep in on me. i was constantly keeping handy a mindset of, "hmm. i don't really feel like it." now, don't get me wrong- my days are cheery enough. after all, christmas is coming! but all the more reason for me to wonder at why i felt so out of it. then today i read this:
Heaven is not here, it's There. If we were given all we wanted here, our hearts would settle for this world rather than the next. God is forever luring us up and away from this one, wooing us to Himself and His still invisible kingdom, where we will certainly find what we so keenly long for.
"Running aground," (a trial, a failure, a slump, whatever has you feeling unsatisfied) then, is not the end of the world. But it helps to make the world a bit less appealing. It may even be God's answer to "Lead us not into temptation"- the temptation complacently to settle for visible things.
keep a quiet heart
this was the perfect reminder to straighten me out. if everything went absolutely smoothly everyday, if i was always satisfied and never out of it, if i was completely content with how i'm doing and forever fulfilled with "visible things," i would certainly not want to leave. i would never desire heaven. i wouldn't depend on Him for my joy. everything would be all wrong. this world will never satisfy fully, and i should stop trying to make it do so. that's not what it's been designed to do.
so i can be thankful in all things, including and maybe especially a slump. (which by the way, has been fading recently) thank you Lord, for keeping me in check. thank you for trials and failures and all the little things that go wrong. thank you for reminding me that no matter how merry the days are here, they will be even more dazzling There!
November 22, 2010