June 8, 2011
duedate

dear baby

today is your due date! this day has been looming in my mind for so long that it has felt almost hypothetical. like when we reached it the world might just stop. but that day is real. it's here. i woke up and ate cheerios with granola. i gave your daddy a kiss. i checked the weather and facebook. i took a shower. i'm celebrating by doing normal things. because even though it's here, you're still in there- not to put any pressure on you. i'm done counting days! i'll just be patient until you're ready. i know life must be pretty sweet, sharing chipotle burritos with me. i wouldn't want to leave either.

but just so you know, i'm ready for you. the house is clean, laundry is caught up, diapers are standing by, meals are in the freezer, and my commitments are none. all i have to do is eat and drink and sleep until you come! speaking of which, i wonder when i will get caught by you. what will i be in the middle of when you decide it's time? i'm trying to stay on top of my showering, just in case.

there are so many things i need to get down before it's too late and you're not inside me anymore. i can't imagine that right now, but i know some morning soon i will wake up and be a little freaked out that yes, the bump really is gone. (and i will be able to see your face instead!) i have loved the curve you created in my figure. i love to take extra time staring at this stomach, trying to figure out the miracle. i've loved communicating with you through the funny barrier of my skin. i love to run my fingers over the firmness and picture you waking up from my touch. i love to talk to you every morning while we lay in bed, and ask you if you'll come today?

i've loved the shiver of your stretches, the mystery appendage that pokes my left side, the pressure from your burrowing head, the throb of your tiny hiccups, the lump of your bum pushing straight out in front.. you are so amazing to feel. no one else gets to know you like this. no one else gets to have this time with you. i will savor it until the end.

it's crazy how close we are to meeting. you'd think i'd have a better idea of what you will be like on the outside, but i am stumped. completely. come show me! all i know for sure is that it's going to be miraculous. our tiny family will be three. because you're ours! our baby. 
who i get to meet any. minute. now.

i love you,
your mom

20 comments:

elise blaha said...

holy cow. great post. i'm crying over here. adore your attitude so much and i want to be just like you when i'm pregnant. wishing you a safe and peaceful delivery!

Nessa said...

Happy Due Date Summer and little one. Sharing this pregnancy with you via blog world has been so much fun. This was beautiful. You are right... one of the coolest things about being a mom is all the time we get. First being pregnant and then through the night feedings. It is a super head start in getting to know the little creatures we are blessed to take care of... enjoy it.

marta said...

happy due date, my dear. am thinking of you, praying for you, hoping all will go well. you are going to be the very best mama for this little babe. i can hardly wait to hear the news.

donya gjerdingen said...

Amazing letter. Wow. I never quite thought if it that way: "no one else gets to know you like this. no one else gets to have this time with you." It's such a special thing being pregnant. I hope your delivery goes super well.

Hannah said...

Happy Due Date! This is such a lovely post Summer. Thinking of you as you wait out the final stretch of pregnancy in eager anticipation : )

Sky said...

too sweet :-)

Whitney Lane said...

these letters are so precious and inspiring. happy due date!! cannot wait to see your precious little one. you know, when the time comes.

Renee said...

so glad you have this post to remember the "day"! praying for you and the babes....can't wait to see you both!!

Katie said...

you are so patient. happy happy happy!

The Soul Anchor said...

Wow this is an incredible letter. What a wonderful idea to write letters to your child even before he/she arrives out in the world! I hope your delivery goes smoothly and safely!

dee said...

Wow, you captured it perfectly. Your little one is really going to treasure your letters one day. I'm so excited for you I can barely stand it! Will you blog from the hospital please! JK, mostly :)

Katyha said...

eek! so close now :)

Anonymous said...

You have such a gift with words - this was just beautiful. Thanks for sharing!

DawnK said...

Thus made me cry! My kids are 18 and almost 22, but you still made me remember an almost done pregnant belly! It's really hard to explain being pregnant to someone who has never been pregnant! You really get to experience the baby in a way that mo one else can! I hope your baby comes soon!

Tiana said...

You're so lovely

marta said...

am patiently waiting for any news.. while you are the lady in waiting. thinking of you. happy weekend.

God's Gal Sarah said...

I know you don't know me from Adam, but Tammie Moore's oldest girl Hayley recommended your blog to me. I LOVE reading your posts! I have tried several of your recipes and my husband deemed them his favorite :)

Congrats on your due date! I keep checking in hopes that little Harmsie has arrived ;)

Learning to Simply Live said...

Oh I am so on the same page as Marta and Sarah. Praying for you every moment that I get the chance! Have a blessed weekend! ;)

Melissa Joy said...

That post was both really funny and really touching. I myself too am expecting and due July 25. I keep thinking about that magic date too and what happens when you get there and still nothing. The description of how you feel with baby inside is so the way I feel but haven't been able to put it in words. I am touched. Thank you! (Good luck with your delivery)

Melissa Joy said...

Ok. So I love this poem so much that I had to share it on my blog. Hope you don't mind. Shared your blog link on it to give you credit.

http://joywithsugarontop.blogspot.com/2011/06/mothers-poem-to-her-baby.html

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